Haven't blog for quite a while le..... Well, a lot has happen ever since.... Today, i can't seem to concentrate on any thing.... Not even listening to Mr.Chan during the Chem lecture..... Something is wrong with me..... Totally depressed and feel so hopeless......... Didn't eat much today either....... Jus ate noodles for breakfast and wat my dad cook for dinner which i ate much less than usual......

Though I would like to type wat I am thinking at this every moment.... I can't...... Cos i will only invite more problems.... And with 'A's just around the concer...... That is the last thing i want...... I never have this feeling since the last time i brokedown........ However, the difference is that I knew why I am so depressed now and i could do something about it but..... can I????????

I am so sad that I really want to go back to the the special place of mine at night.......... But, then when is life ever so good......... My bike is spoilt and there is no bus that I can take to go there at night..... Even cycling takes about 1 hour or so...... Wonder y my life is so bitter..... Nothing good ever happens to me..... Not even on my B-dae...... Haiz............ Maybe, if I goes missing, the whole world may not even notice.......

I think i am beginning to isolate myself le..... Does have the slightest reason or idea to go out......... Even at home..... I don't even have the mood to study...... Man..... Going to fail my 'A's le if this goes on..... But then again, I want to go out right in the middle of the night jus to walk around or even find a quiet area to sit down.........

The last few night I haven been able to sleep at all........ I jus lie down on my bed and sleep for like 30 minutes B4 finding myself awake again........ Nevertheless, in front of my friends... I have to present myself as a happy person.....

I really miss someone totally..... Yet..... Now is not the time to tell her............. She is happy as of now and I would not want to do anything to make her unhappy........ This feeling of her is so special that i knew that I really like her.... But then.... Does she like me..... This sort of relationship has to be two-way...... If not, it really hurts....... Think I will try to avoid her due to some reasons......

Love can make or break a person....... Well, it is starting to break me already........ I am rather a slow person when it comes to relationship.... So, it is always kind of too late for me...... Y mus something happen B4 I really know wat i want in life..... And most of the time, it is jus too late when i realise it.........

I really like her..... But, it is jus too late le.........

Guess I have to stop le...... Thinking of going out at this very moment...... Alone...... Walking along a remote road........ Crying..........





.......................................TigerFool :'(